Saturday, October 8, 2011

My Little Faith

It's October, I can't believe it. I don't know where the time goes anymore. It's seems lately that I am being attacked in every area of my life.  It really was starting to get me down; worry was overtaking me and I hated that. I hate worrying because it shows that I am not depending on God and I want to depend on God alone. Yet, worry is one of the things I deal with the most. Another thing I've been struggling this week with is being joyful, even sincerely happy. It's so easy for me to fake a smile and say "I'm good", but I don't want to be an artificial person, I want to be genuine.
I know though, that only being in constant prayer and at peace with God will bring joy. Thus when I worry and do not pray, I take matters into my own hands which only leads to heart ache. I think of Matthew 6:25-34
25 "Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?27And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? 28And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29yet I tell you,even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31Therefore do not be anxious, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all.33But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
 34 "Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

This week I was blessed to attend Bible conference week here at BBC, one session our speaker gave a message on this very passage. It was exactly what I needed this week. I have been so worried about finances, my health, others' health, my grandfather, dramatic situations going on with friends, etc... It seemed that life was just too much and I didn't even have time to catch my breath. Yet, when I heard that message I was reminded that my worry does nothing to help these situations. It simply stresses me out, making them worse. I am the one Jesus is talking about, sometimes my faith seems so little. I forget what a VERY BIG GOD I serve. I forget that the same power He used to form the mountains and the stars lives within me as the Holy Spirit. I forget that He holds the world and my future in His hand. I forget that nothing happens that He does not allow first. 
So this week I have been praying that God would remind of what an awesome and all-powerful God He is. And you know what? My problems don't seem as big as they used to, because I know that they are out of my hand and in my Father's. 

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